It’s been an exhausting week. Exhausting in every sense. I finished the majority of my finals, papers, and projects, which took no small amount of time and concentration. But on top of that finals stress, I have this extra emotional layer. It’s a complex emotion, a savory blend of “you made it!” and “you’re leaving, goodbye.” I’m proud of what I’ve accomplished, and I’m certainly ready to graduate, and I’m certainly rejoicing that this is my last Finals Week. But that doesn’t mean I won’t miss school, and the person I am when I’m here. I hate the stress, but I love to learn. This emotional discomfort sits in the back of my head, causing me to toss and turn long after my bedtime. I’ve left this school for summer plenty of times, and I’m worried that this time it won’t feel different. I want it to feel different.
So today, after my German final, I treated myself to an afternoon of stuffing tiny narwhals in the sun against a pile of pillows. I have plenty of work to do yet this weekend, but I also have done plenty of work this week. I deserve a small mental (and emotional) break.
Happy Friday, everybody. You earned it!